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Well... this is the beginning of who knows what? I must admit, I am both terrified and frightened as I venture on this new and exciting journey.

Hopefully the material I provide will be moderately entertaining. As well as an outlet for majority of my "crazy" that I do my utmost to contain, in hopes of protecting my loved ones.

Okay, I guess best place to start is with an introduction. I am Abigail Lewis, mother of 3 absolutely beautiful kids. My eldest is Keano, an amazingly loving young man who has started me the journey of motherhood. Which I definitely often fear and dread. Keano will be 13 years old in December.

Then we have Lyle. He drowned 7 years ago. He would have been 11, also in December. I must admit some days are more difficult than others, dealing with the loss of a child. Lots of people have told me to give it time, time heals all wounds. Though, personally, I believe that with time we learn how to handle our hurt better. I honestly can't imagine living without this hurt. It has become a part of who I am. After all a child is but only another extension as to who we are as mothers...

And finally, we have Jaimee-Lyn, A busy 4 year old who keeps me on my toes 24/7. I feared I would completely forget and lose all traces of Lyle once she was born. I am quite glad that I haven't. She has so many of his traits. Which pushes me to be more protective of her, beside her being a girl, obviously...

I have an amazing man, Barry. Who since the very beginning of our relationship saw something within me that I still today have trouble seeing. It still stuns daily that someone could love me to the degree that he does. Even on my days when I see no way forward. He is there right beside me always pushing me on. Never allowing me to give up. I suppose that's one of the many things I completely love about him, he is BESIDES me, not in front or behind.

Okie dokie, that would be all for now. Will drop in again. and download some more issues.

Whoever is reading... Thank you for you time...